Giuseppe Blivins

I haven’t written for too long, my brain is that of a scientist or philosopher always questioning the fabrication of the world around me my so called “reality” maybe my goal in life is to perfect satisfaction  then maybe i’ll write a book containing my findings to teach people how to be content with everything in life, there’s always a different angle, a different way to analyse the same thing, with so many lenses of humanity if you can put yourself in anyone’s shoes then you can see everything as it is meant to be…. the strange  occurrence hat has recently come to more attention is my ability to tell the future, it’s not something i have ever had control over nor was it so frequent but that time has come, i already know of this spiritual metamorphosis for years, and I’ve known it would be now, filling this space in the void that we call linear time for about 8 months, i met a magical person who told me it would be about 8 months, that i would find an older spiritual mentor, i have found an older spiritual mentor her name is Beatrice and she has given me great insight and guidance I want to do more research on psychedelic drugs and their potential of opening the third eye and opening the mind, cutting down doors and corridors i may have left locked in fear of reopening them but they have been long forgotten. I tried hypno-therapy with little success  my therapist was a very charismatic male Gemini as well with his PHD in psychology and he was far too reserved, in the same regard maybe i didn’t want someone else brainwashing me, so i quite that and instead of brainwashing myself tried something else, I let go, I’m still letting go, detachment from this world, detachment from time, previously when in a philosophical debate about time i would have little to say thinking that it is a fruitless thing to contemplate, maybe at the time it was but now clairvoyance is becoming more and more rapidly clear i doubt the existence of linear time because i can tell the future and i can look into other peoples pasts sometimes. This phenomena has led me to believe that all time is concurrent… but i have to wonder am I telling the future or am i making the future, i believe it may be a combination of both, manifesting will is something I’ve gotten quite good at but similarly to the manner in which i lucid dream, maybe i don’t always want to change things, with power comes great responsibility… but i like having responsibility so yes, i do want to change things, or whatever life will highlight my path as it does everyone’s i’m assuming, you just have to open your eyes and be aware of the subtle changes in your reality and you must become in touch with yourself .. and hmmm…. as far as my love life goes I’m done focusing on it or making it important at all, i’m enjoying romancing myself and learning more about myself, but if i fall again i’ll change that attitude, but I maybe meet someone once a year who i am truly interested in, i have a feeling, not a fear maybe a hope that the next time i sleep with someone i will fall in love with them, it’s maybe just a thought or a foolish desire however i’ve forgotten what it feels like to be in love, i know what love feels like, but that sexual spark that goes with romance, that intimate kiss under the moonlight, my trembling body as my heart pumps at god-speed, the after sex cigarettes and tlc, romance is something i have yet to indulge enough in my short life so far of 19 years, I am what you would call a new age romantic i guess, but my next relationship has to set me free, I cannot be caged, and i want a woman who is independent and doesn’t want to be caged either. A free bird will sing you a beautiful song in the morning as you wake up, a caged bird will squawk obnoxiously to be fed. I am no ones father and do not intend to be. children are very fascinating to study as they are the purest form of humanity, however everyone’s having kids so there’s plenty to study. In the end by the time I’m 35 I want to own real estate, live in a castle and study the universe with a few other scientific minded people who are spiritual i will create a mages guild in like Malibu or somewhere beautiful where i can have a lot of land and be left alone to my studies.